Thursday, July 02, 2009

nothing hurts as much as this.

i rather suffer more paper cuts,bruises and pain than this heartache.
moo moo left me and went to heaven ):

my heart hurts so much. my tears can't stop flowing.i can't stop crying.
i'm going to have an asthma attack.but who cares.whats new.

I can't forget the image.when i stepped into the house, i called out to my babies and i saw moo moo lying in the rose bath salt not moving.and in 2 seconds,i know moo moo left me. my heart just shattered into dust.not pieces.it was so devastating.I had to call out for daddy.I can't settle the rest myself.i cant bring myself to.it hurts just too much.

daddy got so flustered and traumatised cos I was wailing so badly.I just bawled my eyes out and is still doing so. from the moment I became sensible,this is my 2nd time bawling so badly.i forbid myself to cry aloud. especially not in front of daddy. Daddy looks so tong xing..so i got no choice but to eat my dinner.

I know this day will come,but didnt expect it so soon.
moo moo,mummy loves you forever.

I love the way she stretch out her paws and sleep on the way. the way she tau pok with mee mee. the way she looks at me when I carry her. the silly her when she tripped and roll out of the cage while trying to come out. the way she runs on the wheel. the lazy way she lies on her butt to drink water. the lazy her who will find the right angle to sleep while in the pink ball. the perfect angel so that she can lie on her back and rock in the wheel.


its so cute.everytime it escapes from the cage it will run and hide beside the washing machine.there was once it escaped,but mee mee didnt.and daddy found it at the washing machine. guess moo moo loves the washing machine

everyday before i sleep,after i wake up,before i go out,after i come home,any random time in the day,i wil check my babies to check if they are moving.evenn when they are sleeping,i will observe to see if they are moving..

when i'm late for school,i can skip breakfast.but i must make sure my babies has food.make sure they have fresh water.make sure they are nice and comfy..

cause i love them so much.

and they say that pets and owners are linked together. no wonder I have been falling sick lately.2 asthma attacks,1 sorethroat and 1 flu together. if only moo moo is still with me,i dont mind falling ill a few more times.it wont kill me. it beats feeling so devastated.

a video of cute moo moo sleeping.
love its silly post
video

poor mee mee looks so lonely. normally they will tau pok to sleep.and they will help each other lick their fur.

i can't stop crying..i didnt know it will hurt so much...